First of all, I have to admit that I love love love sleeping. But it does not mean that I do not like laying in bed before falling asleep. During that period of time, I dreamed about a lot of things, from daily life to undersea to supernatural. Just anything, no matter it is real or unreal. But it is nothing about MY BIGGEST FEAR. I dreamed about a lot of things and kind of formed them into stories. Oh by the way should I consider that period of time as a day dreaming? Maybe I should. haha
Thinking or dreaming about them take me away from the cruel reality that I am living in. And those ‘stories’ allowed me to input so much excitement in my invisible or unreal life. Ok, I sound like a total freak now.
But anyways as much as I love to dream about them, I love to write them down as a story which I have never succeeded. Actually we have to get back to why I cannot fall asleep instead of my relationship between the stories.
Yes, as mentioned, I am laying in bed creating lots of fancy. I like those fancy since I am the one that create them. But as I am creating them, I will slowly get back to reality. I will slowly review what I did in that day and end up with a down emotion. Not because I did nothing, it is because the only thing that enjoy the most in a day is blogging. And of course the period of time that I spend time with my family. I absolutely treasure that period of time. But apart from those times, I feel like there is always something missing in my life. I do not know what I am missing and have been trying to find it out which is such a struggle.
When I am in such a down emotion, I will plug myself away from it and start the fancy story again. And after a couple of minutes with my fancy story, I start to think about my real life. And not for a long time, I am back with the fancy story. I will eventually fall asleep in this infinity loop. And god knows what time is it.
I believe some of you may think I am so childish or silly after reading this or if you can even finish reading it since it is quite boring. But this is the reason why I cannot fall asleep.
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